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Butterflies and Sunshine

Journal Entry: Mon Nov 16, 2009, 7:50 PM
So I met this guy...
A couple of months ago I started talking to this very funny man online. We met on Tagged and he was just a real sweetheart. He is caring, funny, kind, smart and romantic. Pretty quickly we fell in love and it's been wonderful since then. I've been to see him... he lives in Florida right now. I never thought that soulmates were real, boy was I wrong! I made a list of everything I wanted in my dream man 2 months after I left my husband. After I made the list, I thought, "yeah, right." and put the list away. Well I got that list out again after Joe and I admitted our feelings for each other... he has every single quality on my list. EVERY SINGLE ONE! All I can say is that God must've been looking over my shoulder the day I was writing them down. I've never been happier in my life and I've never had a man treat me the way he does. I'm so very grateful for him and I know he feels the same. He never ever fails to tell me how much he loves me and how much I mean to him. He is constantly doing little things for me and sending me little messages just because he loves me. My Prince Charming exists and I'm not taking him for granted. I can't wait to start our life together. He's moving up here as soon as he finds a job up here. WOOT! In the meantime, we're just going to keep visiting each other. Time is moving so slowly! Lol! But it's worth the wait.
I love you Joe Perez!
<3

  • Mood: Love Dazed
  • Listening to: Ravens Football Game
  • Reading: The Courtesan
  • Watching: My daughter asleep on my bed
  • Playing: with my Photography!
  • Eating: Kit Kat
  • Drinking: Iced Tea

Self Worth

Sun Sep 13, 2009, 8:15 PM
I had a most enlightening text conversation with a man who is very dear to me the other day. I was made to look at myself thru his eyes and it was very difficult for me. My friends know about my blah blah blah body issues.... he was very honest with me about that and some other things...
I'm eternally grateful. He made me realize that I'm my own worst enemy and that if I don't value myself, nobody else will either. It was done with the utmost kindness and complete candor. I thought about what he said all night and part of the next day.
Now I'm on a personal mission to shut that negative voice the hell up! Lol! It's so very hard, but I'm muddling thru. Almost like a 12 step program... one day at a time. ;)
So from now on, if u catch me beating myself up, tell me to knock it off! XD
Love u guys!
Thanks so much for ur positive support with my photography.
<3

  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: Led Zeppelin
  • Reading: IM from the above mentioned friend
  • Watching: the moon reflect on the river
  • Playing: with my photography
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: cranberry juice

Melancholy

Mon Jul 27, 2009, 2:25 PM
It's been 6 months since I made the decision to leave my marriage. I'm glad I did it and haven't looked back. I've rediscovered who I am and what I want and like. Problem is, I'm lonely alot. I've met some really great guys but, for one reason or another, none of them are right. Yes, I know it's only been 6 months, but damn! Patience is not one of my virtues. I'm in NYC as I type this, having spent a couple days with a really great guy, but again, never gonna be more than fwb. I hate having to sort thru the jerks to get to the good ones. For every good guy I become friends with, I've had to sift thru 10 jerks. It's tiring and discouraging. And I haven't even touched on the whole weight issue! So many guys can't get past that, and I have no desire to be with someone who doesn't like curves. Anyway, thanks for letting me vent. I've been feeling pretty down.
:kitty:

  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: a thunderstorm
  • Reading: menu to the Tick Tock Diner
  • Watching: the rain pour down on NYC
  • Playing: my playlist.com music list
  • Eating: nothing yet!
  • Drinking: diet pepsi

HELP!

Tue Mar 24, 2009, 8:26 AM
I need your help! There is a website out there that you can put your photography on and if anyone uses it, you get paid. I read about it and now I can't find the damn magazing I saw it in! Does anyone know what site it is?
Thanks for trying to help me out!

  • Mood: Amused
  • Listening to: Henry getting into something....
  • Reading: American Photo Magazine
  • Watching: The river
  • Playing: ...
  • Eating: ...
  • Drinking: Iced Tea

40

Sun Jan 18, 2009, 2:13 PM
I hate that number. I will be turning that number on February 18th of this year. Ick.
I've decided to start doing things that make me happy though. That means LOTS of changes in my life. Most are good. I'm looking into a photography class at the local college because I enjoy photograpy so much. Someday I hope I can point to a print ad or something like that and say, "I took that pic!". We'll see!

  • Mood: Amused
  • Listening to: Henry purr
  • Reading: Maureen McCormicks Autobiography
  • Watching: Henry sleep
  • Playing: Nickelback
  • Eating: pb&j
  • Drinking: Iced Tea

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