I had a most enlightening text conversation with a man who is very dear to me the other day. I was made to look at myself thru his eyes and it was very difficult for me. My friends know about my blah blah blah body issues.... he was very honest with me about that and some other things...
I'm eternally grateful. He made me realize that I'm my own worst enemy and that if I don't value myself, nobody else will either. It was done with the utmost kindness and complete candor. I thought about what he said all night and part of the next day.
Now I'm on a personal mission to shut that negative voice the hell up! Lol! It's so very hard, but I'm muddling thru. Almost like a 12 step program... one day at a time.
So from now on, if u catch me beating myself up, tell me to knock it off! XD
Love u guys!
Thanks so much for ur positive support with my photography.
<3

It's been 6 months since I made the decision to leave my marriage. I'm glad I did it and haven't looked back. I've rediscovered who I am and what I want and like. Problem is, I'm lonely alot. I've met some really great guys but, for one reason or another, none of them are right. Yes, I know it's only been 6 months, but damn! Patience is not one of my virtues. I'm in NYC as I type this, having spent a couple days with a really great guy, but again, never gonna be more than fwb. I hate having to sort thru the jerks to get to the good ones. For every good guy I become friends with, I've had to sift thru 10 jerks. It's tiring and discouraging. And I haven't even touched on the whole weight issue! So many guys can't get past that, and I have no desire to be with someone who doesn't like curves. Anyway, thanks for letting me vent. I've been feeling pretty down.

I need your help! There is a website out there that you can put your photography on and if anyone uses it, you get paid. I read about it and now I can't find the damn magazing I saw it in! Does anyone know what site it is?
Thanks for trying to help me out!

I hate that number. I will be turning that number on February 18th of this year. Ick.
I've decided to start doing things that make me happy though. That means LOTS of changes in my life. Most are good. I'm looking into a photography class at the local college because I enjoy photograpy so much. Someday I hope I can point to a print ad or something like that and say, "I took that pic!". We'll see!

I saw this in someone's journal on here and I thought it was funny!
So I'm doing it and I'm going to tag some people to do it too!
Use the first search return to answer each question.

[1] Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search.
Christina needs Facebook. LOL!


[2] Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search.
Christina looks like a boy! 0.o


[3] Type in "[your name] says" in Google search.
Christina says Speak Out!


[4] Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search.
Christina wants you to see her nipples. 0.0 No I don't! OMG! Lmao!


[5] Type in "[your name] does" in Google search.
Christina does not look happy.


[6] Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search.
Christina hates drama!


[7] Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search.
Christina asks for help with her video montage!


[8] Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search.
Christina Goes Pantless for Jordan's Hawaiian B-Day Celebration!


[9] Type in "[your name] likes " in Google search.
Christina Likes to Play Naughty Nurse. Lmao!


[10] Type in "[your name] eats " in Google search.
Christina eats pizza. (whew! that one had me worried!)


[11] Type in "[your name] wears " in Google search.
Christina wears "I f*cked Britney Spears" pin to afterparty.


[12] Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google Search.
Christina was arrested for an alleged in-flight outburst involving a cigarette, some swearing and a jab to the jaw of the flight attendant.


Now I'm tagging....